I am writing to inform you of the present state of my heart. Some parts of this letter might seem like lamentations, desperate sentiments, or even bear the tunes of songs of the despairing hearts. They are the truest reflections of my heart nonetheless.
The rules of the game say that our paths must cross in the most natural of ways, devoid of any interference or helping hand. Perhaps they already have, but, we both don’t know that yet. I often wonder if you have considered cheating, getting some kind of help, or exerting your own efforts. I have; one too many times. I wonder what the consequences might be, given that we will have found each other anyway.
I want you to know that I have worked to the best of my abilities to ensure that I keep myself for you. I haven’t done an excellent job, but as you will discover when we finally meet up, I have tried to keep the finest rooms in my heart and life as squeaky clean as possible. God told me that like His son, you will ‘come as a thief’ and that I must be ready at all times.
I have been tricked a couple of times by those that have almost sworn they were you. In deed I would momentarily believe them and almost signed up their contracts. But soon enough, they gave themselves up in one way or the other. Some of them would just flee all by themselves. It was as if someone chased them away. Perhaps you secretly did. I must confess however that the long periods of waiting have taken a toll on me. Sometimes, I entertain others who I know are NOT you, just to appease my boredom.
“as you will discover … I have tried to keep the finest rooms in my heart and life as squeaky clean as possible”
I still have my ticket to heaven. It’s not marked but I should hope that we have adjacent seat numbers for I will always want to be with you. I am guessing it might not be a first-class ticket, considering the temptations and trials that I have had to deal with in recent days. We shall go to heaven nonetheless. Please take good care of your ticket, and stay out of trouble. There are a lot of black angels that have been sent out to take away those tickets from those that have them.
Now, I was kidding about cheating. Let’s stick to the perfect timing. But in case you are getting as restless as I am and feel you must do something to quicken the process, you can visit these places and hopefully our chances of meeting up will increase. I love to hang out in libraries and quiet inspirational places like parks. I go to the noisy places as well, but rarely. I also love the soccer stadiums. I know I have a less than average chance of running into you there, but what an awesome thing that would be! I am generally an indoor person, introverted, and I work alone for the most part. I know this is not exactly helping our chances, but what to do my love?
Lastly, I want you to know that I am already in love with you. Do not worry about the ‘working it out’ clichés, everything will fall into place as soon as we are together. We shall meet soon because I can already begin to smell the light tug of your fragrance. I think you are nearer than you’ve ever been. Everything in my life confirms that; even my age!
Yours in waiting,
- Infidelity/unfaithfulness, do all relationships suffer from it? by @nasaye (samkitots.wordpress.com)